James 4:8

I feel like these past few weeks have just been crazy. I finished up exams, came home, work continued to be hectic even when the strain of classes was gone, then my dad's accident, then Em's wedding, & then vacation with my family.

Though I'm much more open than I used to be, I'm still a pretty private person. I need me time. And I haven't gotten any of that lately. During the school year, I don't like to have a class that starts before about 11 because I like to be able to get up at 8, have a little time with God, write in my journal, read a book, etc...all before getting ready for class. Not that I enjoy getting up early at all, but I just need some time to be by myself before I'm ready to face the day.

Right now, I have no schedule...it changes every day so I don't feel like I get that time. On top of that, I just kind of feel empty. It's being pretty transparent for me to even write that. Part of it is because of church. I haven't been to church in 3 weeks for one reason or another...beach with the girls, my dad being in the hospital, & then the beach with my family. Even though I don't really get anything from my church right now, I still miss that community. I have that at school & I don't really have it here.

I feel like I just need good worship. And by worship I don't just mean singing. I just mean God. I need to experience God. Not that I don't every day in the little things, cause I do. And actually God & I had a nice little chat on the drive home from Newnan the other night. But I just miss having that communion with Him on a daily basis.

I don't really know what the point of this was...I guess I'm just rambling, but I just needed to put some thoughts into words.