Seeking Passion

It's been awhile...I know. :(

So, I'll just jump right in. I've been formulating this post for a few days now but haven't been able to put it into words. Here's the gist.

I'm graduating in May.
I have no idea where to go next...not really.
I have a major that I hear is so useful but I don't know where or how.

I've said so many times that I feel like I'm in a waiting stage. I'm ok with waiting on God for the answers. I know He's probably not going to give them a second too soon. And I'm ok with that...but I have to remind myself daily that I am.

I'm a planner. An organizer. If you saw my room right now you may doubt that, but I promise, I know where everything is. It might be in a strange place...but it's organized. I like to know what I'm doing every weekend for the next few months. I like to know when tests are coming up. I like to know what classes I'm taking next semester way in advance. So, as you can imagine, the unknown is sometimes a hard thing for me to deal with.

In one way, it's really exciting...I'll graduate & be tied down by nothing. I can do anything I want to do. On the other hand, I wish I was more tied down...that'd give me a little more guidance in looking for a job. I'd have an idea of where to look at least.

Anyway...back to the point of this. I had to write a resume & letter for a class recently so I started researching jobs. I've found a few that make me really excited. Scared to DEATH, but excited.

I talked to a dear friend about this a few weeks ago. She's recently been in the same position: graduated with a major she didn't really know how to use, moved across the country to a job that she settled for, but now is back with more work than she can even handle & is loving life. God is showing her how her passions fit into a career. This has been such an encouragement to me. People always tell me it will work out, & I know they're right...but this all just happened for my friend in the past months. I can literally see God working through her.

To sum all this up: Figuring out what your passions are & how God wants you to use them is scary but oh so exciting. Good friends are the encouragement that my heart longs for. God's breaking me from this "planning" mode & forcing me to wait on His answers & I'm learning to love that.