Well, it happened...the dam broke & the tears came. I've cried a bit here & there about this whole Case & Beth graduating thing...but it really hit tonight. We had both of their senior spotlights at chapter tonight. Those went well. Lots of tears from them. I got choked up, but didn't really cry...I held in in surprisingly well.
Until...Beth hugged us & said I'll see you in a week or so. I know...a week. No big deal. Except it just really hit me. I knew it was going to happen sooner or later, but I didn't really expect it to be tonight. I'm so thankful that I'm going to be here another year & I wouldn't trade that for the world. It's just so weird that they're not going to be right here with me. Sometimes I just want to live in Neverland for awhile.
I think the weird thing is that we all thought we'd be graduating at the same time, getting married, having first real jobs, having kids...we thought we'd be doing it all together. We will be together...just not in timing. It's probably even better this way. And be probably, I mean definitely. God did this for some reason...I just don't quite understand why sometimes. I guess now we all have our moments in the spotlight...but I'd rather share mine.
What it all boils down to is this...they hold pieces of my heart. I am who I am because of each of my closest friends. I can literally see the ways I've changed since August of 2005 when I moved here. I am a more confident person, a better follower of our Jesus, a better servant, a better student (some days moreso than others...), a better friend. I've grown up here & my heart is here, with these girls. My sisters have a place in my heart that no one else can ever take over.
Last night Caitlin & I were talking about puzzles & how they're such good metaphors. Our family is a perfect puzzle. To be complete, it has to have me, Jess, Case, Alison, Caitlin, Brandi, Sara, Brittany, & Keri. Without just one of us, it wouldn't be the same at all. We need our little adoptees, Beth, Ashley, & Jessie. Even though I don't know Jessie that well, she has to be there. She has made us who we are. Without my puzzle of Case, Beth, & Em...I don't know where I'd be. Without my little Caitlin piece, I'd be lost. They all make me me.
I look back at who I was before North Georgia. Not like I was some bad person, but I was not at all who I am today. And that is because of these girls who have invested in me & shared their hearts with me. My family sort of has to love me. But these friends, they chose to. And now they're a part of my family. Some kind of love.
Forever thankful & praising Him for these.
Until...Beth hugged us & said I'll see you in a week or so. I know...a week. No big deal. Except it just really hit me. I knew it was going to happen sooner or later, but I didn't really expect it to be tonight. I'm so thankful that I'm going to be here another year & I wouldn't trade that for the world. It's just so weird that they're not going to be right here with me. Sometimes I just want to live in Neverland for awhile.
I think the weird thing is that we all thought we'd be graduating at the same time, getting married, having first real jobs, having kids...we thought we'd be doing it all together. We will be together...just not in timing. It's probably even better this way. And be probably, I mean definitely. God did this for some reason...I just don't quite understand why sometimes. I guess now we all have our moments in the spotlight...but I'd rather share mine.
What it all boils down to is this...they hold pieces of my heart. I am who I am because of each of my closest friends. I can literally see the ways I've changed since August of 2005 when I moved here. I am a more confident person, a better follower of our Jesus, a better servant, a better student (some days moreso than others...), a better friend. I've grown up here & my heart is here, with these girls. My sisters have a place in my heart that no one else can ever take over.
Last night Caitlin & I were talking about puzzles & how they're such good metaphors. Our family is a perfect puzzle. To be complete, it has to have me, Jess, Case, Alison, Caitlin, Brandi, Sara, Brittany, & Keri. Without just one of us, it wouldn't be the same at all. We need our little adoptees, Beth, Ashley, & Jessie. Even though I don't know Jessie that well, she has to be there. She has made us who we are. Without my puzzle of Case, Beth, & Em...I don't know where I'd be. Without my little Caitlin piece, I'd be lost. They all make me me.
I look back at who I was before North Georgia. Not like I was some bad person, but I was not at all who I am today. And that is because of these girls who have invested in me & shared their hearts with me. My family sort of has to love me. But these friends, they chose to. And now they're a part of my family. Some kind of love.
Forever thankful & praising Him for these.
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